Ok - here goes - I have put off writing this blog because it just doesn't seem real yet and, somehow, by writing it, it gives it more permanence. Such a heavy, heavy time. On April 29, our phone rang about 6:30 and I could hear my mom trying to talk. She was finally able to get out that she thought my dad was dead.
Rick and I flew out the door. It was true. A day we had known was coming had arrived. Two and a half weeks later I still feel like I am functioning in the mode Daddy prepared me to handle. We discussed his death many times and he told me to take care of my mom which I am desperately trying to do. (Her heart is breaking.) On the Saturday before he died, he told me he wanted a funeral in Decatur because they had made such good friends here. He said he wanted it as soon as possible after he died. And he told me that he wanted me to stand by his casket and thank each person for coming. My dad knew how he wanted to live and he knew how he wanted to die. He was and is one to be in charge when things get confusing for the rest of us. He continues to minister to me now with that steady reassurance.
This morning Mom rode with me to get my nails done and we discussed how sweet the Lord's timing is - I am grateful that I got to sit through Rick's series on heaven earlier this year and gather some thoughts about the place where Dad is enjoying rest.
Lori Lowe gave Mom a poem that she told me today has ministered to her beautifully. When I asked her what part meant the most to her, she responded 'the part about me having to let him go and his promise that he would meet me with a smile when I get to heaven."
This is a really wierd time in life.
7 comments:
So very, very sorry. So thankful for the wonderful legacy he leaves. Many prayers.
What an amazing man your father was. I can only imagine how your heart is breaking too - right along with your moms. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Praising God that your father has finished his race and is with the one He loved most of all. I know that you and your mom, Barbie and your families will miss him. But will be able to live in hope of that heavenly reunion. I know that this will be a very special time you spend with your mom. We were anticipating this time for my dad a year ago, but the Lord has allowed him to stay with us, although my dad longs to go home. I am thankful you have the presence of our beloved God of all comfort, may you continue to feel His arms around you during this difficult time.
He was a wonderful man who shaped my life so much.
I bet he has met everyone in heaven already. And he probably has an idea for some project. Of course, he will be in charge:)
Generations will be blessed because of his legacy.
We have so much to praise God through Papa's life. THanks for sharing your heart. I know you are the biggest blessing in the world right now to B. Papa is super proud of you:)
I read that with sighs of grief for you and your family. I am so sorry for your loss. I am so thankful that your daddy is with the lord. I love you all.
Beverly, as I was reading your blog I was crying heaving tears with every word. I know the pain you are feeling, I had the same pain 9 months ago. I will say to you, the pain softens as time goes by, and in those times, you will remember many fond memories. My heart cries for you and your family. May God bless you and wrap His arms around you! Love you guys!
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